Devotion. Devotion? Devotion

At Beltane this year I stared into a flame, asking what I needed to commit to in body, mind and spirit. What was needing to come to the surface. 
The first answer came quickly. Body? Movement, Dance. This made sense. No big surprise. 
Mind? Stillness, staring. Also not surprising. Expected even. 
Spirit? Devotion. 

Devotion? 

Devotion to what? As someone who doesn’t do a lot of work with deities in my own practice, I was surprised by this answer. Who or what was I supposed to be devoted to? 

I rolled this word around and around in my mind. I let it take up space in my mouth as I felt the texture of it. Speaking it aloud often in the coming weeks. 

The answer was not as far away as it first felt. 

The devotion I was (and am) being called to is creativity and specifically to my writing. 
I felt it when I picked up my pen to journal later that week. The spark and calling was pervasive as I scrawled page after page. 

My practice in devotion to creativity, to muse, to the godds of writing has been long flirted with. From one night stands to months long affairs, creativity and I have had some times.
In moments it consumed me in story, late nights at the keyboard, hours with pen to paper in coffeehouses, on trains, between classes. For years I carried a notebook and wrote in every free moment I could find.  Other times, (most times these last 15 years), creativity in the form of my writing has been pushed to the background as my responsibilities (and sometimes my fear) took over. 

Is it different this time?
I don’t know. It feels different. But I’m pretty sure it’s felt different before. I’m also pretty sure that it's a day by day choice. 

Devotion can be sweet and like love can sweep us off our feet, yet also like love, when the initial rush of oxytocin wears off, devotion can require work, focus, and even discipline. 

How does devotion show up in your life? Where are you choosing to devote your time, your energy, your passion to? 

If it is not already, what would it look like, feel like, be like to make this devotion intentional? 

And are you willing to take the plunge?

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